I have too many untitled documents up. I’ve been writing snippets and they’re all starting to get scattered everywhere and I can’t seem to find my August document which is odd. I came back from Nepal thinking I’d go through all my old journals to start gathering material for a book but I’ve had a hard time dedicating time to returning to the past when I’m still trying hard to just figure out the future / the present / the present / be present —

(It will happen :)

Things have been interesting. It’s September, which is awesome, and I’m hopeful for the production of Good Things, but I haven’t been as kick ass out of the gate as I would have liked to Be, but c’est la vie, that’s how it goes sometimes. Maybe it’s not perfect, and maybe I won’t fit in the straight 1 – 30 box, but changes are coming honey, oh yes, the next four months, shifts are setting in.

Now I just have to get out of my own way.

Now my work is to get out of my own way.

Now my work is to Jump In

get out of the way

get out of my own way —

I invited myself yesterday morning to do that (get out of my own way).

I announced it and was having a strong morning with myself and then was surprised when the afternoon went rougher than I’d expected. I tried to bounce back but was slow to recover and even though by evening I was evening back out I didn’t quite return to the same Buoyancy — ((can’t step in the same river twice))

Talked to Henry on the phone today for nearly two hours and it was so good to hear his voice, to share some space, to listen and learn and speak. He is such a gem. The power of Act As If You Already Are has been starting to whisper again. Act As If You Already Are – – – was such a huge mantra for me at one point – – – Act As If You Already Are, Angelica – – – Act As If You Already Are – Be. It. Now. (Right Now) Practice — Practice — Practice — It’s In The Little Things.

I’ve been eating more cheese again after I’d stopped nibbling on it as a snack for awhile. It felt good to cut it out, to only have it as a treat in a burrito or on a veggie burger. I’m going to start cutting it out as a snack option again, starting Now, by writing this line instead of walking to the fridge and having some (+ let’s be honest “some” will turn into a quesadilla, which actually sounds pretty delicious).

I have the place to myself for the next few days and I think it’s gonna be good for me. Was thinking in the shower how 27 isn’t quite what I thought it was going to be (ah, and again, expectations) — been starting to think about 28, how these next four months of 2016 are important…setting stones… setting stones…there’s a purpose at the end of this…just gotta get myself lined up, lined up, lined up – – – gotta line up, line up, line it all up – – – it’s all in the Practice, the Practice, the Practice, I keep saying —

And So It Is.

And So I Am.

And So I Do.

The Practice.

The Practice.

I Practice.

(with Power)

(with Patience)

(with Love)